Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Young Guns………….and Tom

Guns + Ammo + Shooting Range = Happy Men!!!

Click on the pics to check out the weaponry.

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It was a fun weekend.  We got to see a young man that was a good friend of Peyton’s that had moved away.  It was neat to see these boys act like they hadn’t spent years apart.  After they left, I told Tom, “I wish Peyton had been here with them.”  He said, “They do too.”

We miss this kid. 


It’s been a challenging couple of weeks.  I am grateful the rollercoaster is smaller these days.  There are dips, twists and turns, but they don’t grab our guts as hard or take our breath away for as long.  God is good and His mercy endures forever.

Thanks for reading :)

Monday, January 24, 2011

Let the Fast Begin….again.

Our church has started a 21 day fast.  Each person should seek God and find out what they are to give up.  Tom & I are following the guidelines of a Daniel Fast.  We are eating vegetables, fruits, nuts, whole grains and some fruit juice.  No meat, flour, sugar, etc.  This is the third time we have fasted in this manner.


I found this post in my “drafts”.  We not only started the fast, we ended it this past Sunday!!  It wasn’t bad the first couple of weeks, but by the third week I was ready to be finished!!!!  I don’t know why it got so difficult the last week.

Tom and I wrote out some God inspired goals for this year.  Exciting things are going on in the Body of Christ!!  God is on the move and we are going with Him.

I believe our next fast will be on a whole different level physically and spiritually.  Now to walk out what God has given us to do, that is exciting!!!

Thanks for reading :)

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Supported on Every Side

My last post was about Tom & I going to work on the Peyton’s 3rd Heavenly Anniversary.  We did go to work :)

When I got to my office, I sent an email to all the partners explaining what day it was and that my plan was to be very productive and leave around 3:00.  I received several responses expressing support and prayers.  I am very blessed on my job.

I was expecting company that evening.  I was not disappointed.

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We had every form of support, promises of prayer, emails, text messages, Facebook postings and lots of hugs.  It is hard to live without Peyton and it sounds selfish, but it feels good to not be the only ones missing him.  I got an opportunity to talk to a few of the girls.  One of them told me she had asked her mom if it was “normal” to still cry about Peyton sometimes.  They also talked to me about where they were and their reaction to the news of Peyton’s passing.  I don’t know why, but I like hearing about it.  It is sad and it hurts me to relive their pain with them, but their stories affirm the fact that Tom & I are not alone.

I love these people and I cannot wait to see what they become.

Thanks for reading :)

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Another Step

Tomorrow is the day, Peyton’s third anniversary in Heaven.  I don’t know how a day on the calendar can make such a difference, but it does.  The time is passing and we are still here without him.  We are missing him terribly. 

The past two anniversaries, Tom & I have taken the day offHowever, Tom and I have decided we are going to work tomorrow.    I don’t want to take this step.  It is a step further away from the grief and closer to healing and wholeness, but I don’t want to do it. 

My flesh is screaming, “Everyone will understand!! Stay home!!!”

My flesh will not dominate me and I will quiet annihilate satan’s whispers of self pity with the Word of God.  I looked up the definition to annihilate (I was really checking to see if I spelled it right) it means - to reduce to utter ruin or nonexistence 

God directs my path and tomorrow that path leads me to work.  I’m sure I will shed some tears, but my mind will be focused on God’s promises and His grace and His love.

I’ll let you know how it went. 

Now for some pictures of the boy I love so much.


I don’t think I’ve ever posted a pic like this.  It was seconds before he went to Heaven.

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This one is one of my faves.  Big smile, that’s how the majority of my memories are of him. 

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Thanks for reading :) (and praying, and commenting)

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Delurking Week


Are you a lurker?  Do you read this blog and not comment?  It’s fine if you do, I hope you enjoy reading.  However, your thoughts matter!!!  Type them out in a comment and let me know you are there.  I remember the first time I encouraged people who had never commented before to comment.  One person did it and now she comments regularly.  It’s the first time that’s hard, but you can do it!!!!

Thanks for reading (and commenting) :)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Thank You

I admit it!!!!  I read my own blog!!!  When I am having a challenging time, I read old blog posts.  A week from tomorrow will be Peyton’s third anniversary in Heaven.  I’ve been shedding a few tears over the last few days.  So, I’ve been reading my blog.  If God can use those words to strengthen me once, He’ll use them again.  :) Not only the posts, but your comments.  I appreciate your support, prayers and encouragement.

Thank you for reading and all your comments over the last few years.  (that last sentence sounded like I was signing off forever, but I’m not)