Tuesday, July 15, 2014

The Lesson I Must Learn Again

I haven't been here in a long time.  Well actually, I have come to the blog, but I haven't written anything in almost a year.  I come to the blog and read.  I read of all the times God has carried me.  I read the comments and feel the love.

Tonight I am missing my boy. A LOT.  It's one of those desperate times.  I think of his face and cannot believe he is still gone.  I want to look at pictures of him, but don't.  I know if I do, I will want to crawl into them.

I get tired of missing him.  Sometimes it is still work to focus on the good things I have instead of what I do not have.  The work makes me tired.

OH MY!!! What a pitiful blog post!!!  I wrote these paragraphs and one other one that was too self serving to let you see.  I saved the post as a draft and then began to read old posts and comments.  I've learned too much and God has shown me too much to act like this.  I do have challenging times but GOD IS STILL BIGGER!!  I'm going to get some sleep and be More Than a Conqueror!!