Tuesday, July 15, 2014

The Lesson I Must Learn Again

I haven't been here in a long time.  Well actually, I have come to the blog, but I haven't written anything in almost a year.  I come to the blog and read.  I read of all the times God has carried me.  I read the comments and feel the love.

Tonight I am missing my boy. A LOT.  It's one of those desperate times.  I think of his face and cannot believe he is still gone.  I want to look at pictures of him, but don't.  I know if I do, I will want to crawl into them.

I get tired of missing him.  Sometimes it is still work to focus on the good things I have instead of what I do not have.  The work makes me tired.

OH MY!!! What a pitiful blog post!!!  I wrote these paragraphs and one other one that was too self serving to let you see.  I saved the post as a draft and then began to read old posts and comments.  I've learned too much and God has shown me too much to act like this.  I do have challenging times but GOD IS STILL BIGGER!!  I'm going to get some sleep and be More Than a Conqueror!! 


Kay said...

I think of you often. And yes, there are those 'days' that are just hard. There really isn't any getting around it except to know God is with you and IN you and He is faithful. I'm so sorry you're hurting.

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

Oh how I can relate to how you are feeling, sweet friend. Grief is hard. Missing is hard. It is all very tiring and seems neverending. It makes me appreciate even more the REST that is to come-- no more weary, no more missing.

Praying for God to wrap His loving arms around you and carry you when you are weak and tired and sad. May He encourage your heart.

Love you!