Questions

I just posted on Jess & Trent's blog. Maybe I shouldn't have said so much, but I do have questions. Tom & I were taught all our Christian lives to confess God's word over our lives and situations. We did. Of course, we missed it sometimes and maybe took the long way around but usually ended up where we were supposed to be.

It was easy to have faith when our faith had never been tested. In the past, our main struggle was with money, but we could always tell ourselves...seed time and harvest, it just wasn't harvest time yet, so we kept sowing. But when Peyton died, that was different. How could this happen? This was big and important. Where was God? Why didn't He answer our prayers? I never blamed God, I just don't understand. I am missing something.

Since this happened, it has been hard to pray and believe God. Why will my faith work on something that doesn't mean as much as my son's life meant to me? Even though it is hard, I will do it. I will not base my faith on my experience, but I will base it on the Word of God. He loves me and is committed to me.


If we don't quit, we win.