In my previous post, I said something about a special gift God gave me in the EXCEL class I was taking.
When I figured out that I needed an EXCEL class, I went to the internet and found one at our Adult Education Center. It started THAT NIGHT. I wasn’t sure I could sign up that late, but I called anyway. I was told it would be fine to register a few minutes before the class.
While driving over I was thinking about what it was going to be like walking into a room of strangers by myself. I would have no one there that knew me or knew about Peyton. I don’t think I have experienced that before. You don’t know how well you are going to get to know someone in a classroom setting. Would we have a chance to talk? Would questions be asked about family situations? If I was asked about how many children I had, would it be a downer for everyone who heard my answer?
God graced me with courage. I went in and sat down in front of a computer. A few other people came into the classroom and then a lady I had met at church a couple of years ago, came into the class and sat down right beside me. She looked at me and thought she should know me, but couldn’t place my face. She asked if she knew me and I said yes and explained how we knew each other.
So I wasn’t in a room with a bunch of strangers. Someone knew me and knew my story. I’m not to the point where I am okay with people not knowing about Peyton. I know that as I make new friends, of course I will tell them about my son. But for a casual acquaintance, I need to be okay with them not knowing. I will get there someday, but I didn’t have to be there that night. God is good like that.
Thanks for reading :)
5 comments:
Isn't it amazing that He is big enough to create the universe yet still interested in the details of our lives. That is awesome.
I definitely think not too!
I don't like people not knowing about Christian, but it is always a balance isn't it? Weighing the relationship, the moment and conversation, whether or not we will see that person again... I guess I just feel like they can't possible REALLY know me, if they don't know (or at least know of) Christian. He is and always will be a part of me.
Love you!
So cool! He is always on time everytime!! Always there to meet our needs! He cares about what concerns His Children like the Great Daddy He is!! So cool!
I'm glad you weren't in the room with a bunch of strangers. I remember early on, I couldn't even chat with the check out girl at the grocery store without finding a way to bring it up even if the conversation just took a slight dip where I could throw it in. I felt weird when I didn't acknowledge him. I have gotten to where I don't have to do it all the time. Clerks in grocery stores usually get a by. But things like meeting new people that we will know for a while afterwards...I don't want to just say "we have one kid" and then in their mind, they are painting a picture of me only having ever parented one, when that is not the case. But it really all depends on the situation.
love the transparency in your posts :)
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