Saturday, August 6, 2011

Growth & Change

Our surrogate children are growing up.  Another batch of graduates is heading off to college.   This one is changing colleges and will be an hour away.  Not very far, but it will be different.  He won’t be stopping by as often.  We’ve promised to visit him and buy his dinner once in awhile.  We love him like our own.

My cousins who live next door are BOTH moving off to college this year, an hour away.  I am going to miss them so much.

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I know there is more to my missing them than just the fact I will be seeing them all less.  They carry a piece of Peyton with them and when they come to our home, he is there too.  Even more than that, each of them lets Tom & I be parents to some extent and that has helped us.

It is hard having a son in Heaven who doesn’t need you, but in your mind he is forever 16.  I love being his mom.

Change is inevitable.  It is the way things are supposed to be and is expected.  I remind myself of this on a regular basis.  I actually like change.  I enjoy trying new things and taking on different responsibilities. 

I ask God to help me strike a balance between remembering my son and pressing on toward the future.  I am praying that I will not miss anything God has for my life because I am holding on to the past.  I know God has exciting things for Tom and I to accomplish.  He loves us so much. 

Thanks for reading :)


Kelley said...

I always love your posts! Change isn't always easy. I hope the cousins get to come back and visit soon!

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

change can be hard, but good. i'm glad that so many of peyton's friends and cousins love to be around y'all so much. that just tells me that i would love to be around peyton... usually the apple doesn't fall far from the tree! :)

Kay said...

I'm glad Peyton's friends bring you comfort and a sense of parenting. You are an amazing lady and you are doing so well and I know God has great things for you in the future.

Mona said...

Good post, Beck! I look forward to seeing you three together again! The look on people's faces when we see them with their loved ones again - THAT is going to be something!! :) In the meantime, our goal remains - to make sure we take as many people as we can with us so they too will be participating in that glorious reunion! You do an amazing job of yielding to Him and continuing to run your race! :)