Saturday, May 8, 2010

Enjoy the Moment?

I want to be present for all the excitement and celebration of high school graduation.  It’s proving to be harder than I thought.  I am so proud of Peyton’s graduating class.  I want to enjoy their moment.  Right now, the thoughts of what I do not have are overtaking me.  I miss him.  I want him here.  I want my earthly future to include him.  Heaven seems too far away.

What am I going to do?  I’ve cried.  I’ve thought about what I do not have.  I’ve cried.  I’ve chastised myself for giving in to the negative.  and I’ve cried.  I feel weak and powerless. 

Okay, I’m back.  I know you don’t know I left, but I did.  I had to get my bible.  I need the word.  He never fails me.

Phil 4:4-7

Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again:  Rejoice!!! Let your gentleness be evidence to all the Lord is near.  Do not be anxious about anything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Rejoicing doesn’t come easy sometimes, but it is important for our peace of mind.  That’s why he said it twice.  I didn’t want to get my bible.  Matter of fact, I didn’t want to write this post, but I couldn’t stay in the state of mind I was in for another minute. 

I will

Rejoice

Stay in the Word, it is my lifeline

If I do these things, I will enjoy the moment.

7 comments:

Theresa Brewer said...

I think of you and Tom with each milestone that Taryn and the class of 2010 is going through. I wish you strength and love. Hugs my friend.

Kelley said...

I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through. I have missed Blake so much lately. I try to make Mother's Day extra special for my mom, but she sure misses my brother. Decoration is next weekend. It just doesn't seem real or right. I am sad because Blake won't get to meet Madelyn. He won't be here to give me advice after my surgery. It is the most painful feeling. I have been weak too. I don't mean to feel like that either. Praying for you guys.

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

It is good to cry. It is good to be weak. It is so hard to rejoice or glory in infirmities at time (okay, much of the time!). But when we do, the power of Christ will rest upon us and give us strength in our weakness.

"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." II Cor. 12:9

I've been thinking about you with all the prom and graduation events going on right now. And Mother's Day in less than an hour.

Do you know what I'm thankful for? That out of all the mommy's in the entire world, God gave Christian to ME! And YOU are so precious to the Lord, dear Becky, that God gave Peyton to YOU!

Love you and praying for you, my sweet friend.

Kay said...

I don't see how you are attending these functions. Very hard. I know what you're saying, but don't be overly hard on yourself for hurting.

I'm thankful you are finding strength and hope in His Word. He's the ultimate comforter.

Empty Nest Full Life said...

You are in my prayers this week. Jackie

sanjeet said...

Praying for you guys.
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Janna said...

love this post. You are such a beautiful vessel...sharing God's word, showing what true faith is and being a living example of a true Christian. We are tested, we are tried. We DON'T understand. You've been on my mind a lot...praying for you my friend. xoxo