Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Colorado Company

Our visit with the Coloradoans (don't know if this is a word or not) was really good. We checked out Lake Ft. Smith and drove around Alma, hitting all the high spots. Mostly we just hung out and visited. Some of our Alma friends came over and met them on Friday night and a few of the kids came over on Sunday night and hung out. It is good to feel comfortable enough to do "nothing" with people. Their son's name is Stuart and they miss him too.

I have still been fighting some emotions, but I believe that is the key...fighting. I am winning. There are times when I miss Peyton so much I can't stand it. I want to carry Peyton with me into my future without sadness. I want his memory to bring me joy and laughter. I want to enjoy the life he had with us without dwelling on the fact he is not here. I don't want to live in the past, but live in anticipation with what I have here and now.

My God is bigger than this.
My God directs my path.
He is showing me the way.
His Glory is now and in my future.
Peyton is with me in my mind and heart, always
I remember him with joy.
My life with Peyton was blessed.
My life without Peyton is blessed
God is moving forward
I am moving forward
I cannot be defeated.
I am a work in progress

9 comments:

Belinda said...

I am so glad you had such a great visit with your new friends. Isn't
God great that He knows who needs to be in our lives and what times of our lives they need to be in. Love you!

Jake said...

Tom said you guys had some amazing bar b q. Would love to try that place, sounds amazing!

What did your friends think of the churck service?

Jake said...

In case you're wondering, that was not a typo. Churck is the greek word for church.

So what'd they think? :)

ps said...

I know you are winning and the time will come when you will be able to think of Peyton without an empty feeling in your life. Call the Bradys!!!!!!! -Your pushy pastor :)

dar said...

You always have such interesting posts. All about you and your life that you share ministers to so many that you may not realize! When I read your last item 'i'm a work in progress' I somehow saw it different than ever before. Putting the Word of God on top of my flesh and my mind and my emotions and my daily life is MY work in progress. God sees me complete IN JESUS. I keep on keeping on progressing in applying His victory! Isn't that cool! He did all the work and I wage the good warfare! Glory to God that is good to know! Thanks for being willing to share YOU with the rest of us!

Evan said...

Glad that the visit was good. I know that you guys were a blessing and a light to them! God has connected you for a reason!!! :)
I'm with Jake, what did they think of church? or churck as he calls it!

Beckypdj said...

Churck was a different experience for them, but I think they enjoyed it.

Susie (So Blessed) said...

Those are some beautiful affirmations of your faith and gratitude...praising God in all circumstances. You will be blessed for your faithfulness.
You are in my prayers.

Susie

lisa wahlmeier said...

Becky, I hadn't read your blog in a while. It's very comforting to me, to see your faith in God. I know HE is the only hope we have in this world.
Glad you have your Colorado friends.
I've been to Peyton's grave several times for a visit and think of you and Tommy often.
Take care.
lisa