Monday, August 24, 2009

Pickle Aisle

The other day I was at Wal-Mart and ran into a woman I know. I have known her for 30 years. She works at a place we go to regularly so she has met Peyton and has known him pretty much his whole life. She had expressed her condolences when Peyton went to Heaven. I greeted her and she asked how we were doing. I said "good". Then she asked how the "kiddo" was doing. I acted like I didn't hear her and said again that we were doing good. She then was asking what grade he was in. I looked at her and said, "________, he is in heaven." Of course she was mortified and apologized. She knew what had happened to Peyton, it just wasn't at the forefront of her mind anymore. Do you know what this did to me............right there in the pickle aisle at Wal-Mart??????
It STRENGTHENED me. To look her in the face.......without a catch in my voice..........and be able to say.........He is in Heaven, made me feel strong. I know where my son is and I can make it come out of my mouth.
I know this woman had a hard time with herself when she left Wal-Mart and I felt bad for her. I told her it was okay and I knew that she knew about Peyton. Nothing I could say to her would make her feel better, but I left Wal-Mart feeling good.
My God is awesome and He loves us so much.

4 comments:

Kelley said...

I am so proud of you. I know you feel "good" knowing where Peyton is and being able to say it. God loves you so much!

ps said...

That is so awesome Becky!!! He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it. You are healing because of His love to you and Peyton. I love it!

Kay said...

That is so great! HE is so great in His lovingkindness toward us. So glad you walked away from that experience the way you did! : )

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

Oh Becky, I have so been there!

It is little steps on the journey that we're on. But so long as we stay on the path and put one foot in front of the other, it won't be long until that glad reunion day!