Wednesday, October 21, 2009

18

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I will only focus on my blessings today. I will not sit around and imagine what he would be doing if he were here. That brings me sadness. This boy brought me more joy than I can describe. He was always challenging me to be the best mom I could be. I love that boy so much.

The day he was born he was 10 days overdue. I was hooked up to the drug to induce labor. Four hours later and NO LABOR PAINS, I had a C-Section. He was ginormous, 9 lbs 5 oz and 22 inches long. He slept through the night at two weeks old. I could set the clock by him, bedtime at 8:00 p.m., awake at 8:10 a.m. I am not exaggerating. If Peyton cried, it was because he needed something. He was a very, very easy and happy baby.

Since time in Heaven isn’t like time on earth, I can’t imagine him having a birthday. It’s Heaven, every second is awesome. I want to know exactly what it is like. I want to know what he is doing. He’s been there 21 months. I am selfish enough to want him here. I miss him; lots of people miss him.

This is a close-up of the sign we put in the middle of the flower arrangement. It is perfectly Peyton. Click on the pictures to see them up close.

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7 comments:

Kay said...

So sweet. I often wonder what they experience... our kids... and yet I have to remind myself that he's isn't "in time" like we are. And that birthdays probably don't mean much in eternity. Love the sign.. so cute. I love the stone. We have to have flat ones so I always enjoy seeing an upright. His is perfect too!

Anonymous said...

That picture is awesome. I was cracking up. I understand about the birthday thing because I all day last Saturday I wondered what my dad was really doing. I have to keep reminding myself that his life in heaven far out weighs any birthday he's ever had down here. I can't help but be selfish sometimes, I just miss the big guy! :) I think you and Tom are Awesome and I have had so much fun getting to know you better.

seeking him... said...

Becky,
Praying for you & Tom today... that the memeories that come to you both today brings a brightness into the sadness.
I love the picture of the squirrel:)
-charissa

Rayoma said...

The picture is totally Peyton and the flowers are beautiful. I'm praying that you and Tom remember all the good times and that each memory will bring you joy, today and everyday. I'll bet turning 18 is the last thing on his mind right now!! love you guys!

Kelley said...

I love the picture, the flower, all of it. It is just beautiful. It lets us in to get to know Peyton. I can't imagine what your day has been like. Just know that I am thinking about you!

Mona said...

While time isn't relevant in Heaven, I guarantee there are a variety of celebrations happening because we continue to be individuals deeply loved by God - not just lumped in to one big "group"! Jesus performed His first miracle at a marriage celebration!

Happy Birthday Peyton Douglas Jackson - for without the miracle of your birth in to this earth - there would have been no new birth into the Kingdom of God and eternal life in heaven! It is a good day!! See you soon!

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

Okay, I had some words that I am sure were profound and encouraging... but then I CLICKED ON THAT PICTURE.

Bwahahahahah!!! ROFL! Oh my word, that is hilarious!!! My boys would be all over that. :)

Makes me wonder though... I wonder what sort of things we will be laughing about in Heaven? Because God gave us joy and smiles and laughter... so surely they will all be perfectly magnified in Glory, don't you think?

Love,
Marsha

PS I am glad that God gave you much grace to get through the day... not just Peyton's birthday but every day. Keep clinging to the Cross, my friend!