Friday, November 21, 2008

Lots of Energy

It is taking lots of energy these days to stay on track. This journey is filled with so many conflicting emotions. I want to be better, but then I think, "How can I be better when Peyton is still gone?" Then I have to talk myself into victory...again. Very tiring.

I am a rip the band-aid off get the pain over with and go on kinda girl and this does not work that way. You deal with the hurt and sadness each time it creeps up, going good for awhile and then here it comes again. The hurt & and sadness do not come as often, but they are just as deep. My God is the same each and every time.

Today I left work early, not much to do. I didn't want to go home, my house was empty, Tom would not be home for a couple of hours. I made a couple of stops in town and then decided to suck it up and go home. Check the email...I have comments on my blog!!! I read them and they are encouraging. Thank you so much, I needed them. God uses us all to bless one another. I am truly blessed.

2 comments:

ps said...

You are making progress and even though it may seem slow at times, it's still progress. You can do all things through Christ. I am so glad you know the Lord and know how to tap into HIs supply of strength and joy. What do people do without him?

So Blessed said...

Praying for you as Thanksgiving approaches...that you will continue to be encouraged and comforted and blessed.