Monday, January 11, 2010

Two Years Without Him

Tuesday, January 12th is Peyton’s second anniversary in Heaven.  I choose to think about his two years instead of mine.  My days (as you know if you’ve been reading this blog for any length of time) are not all bad; in fact they are mostly good.  I am blessed and I know it.  Peyton is …….well my mind can’t even fathom how good his life is in Heaven.

Last year on this anniversary, I said it seemed like forever and it seemed like yesterday since I had seen or talked to Peyton.  This year it only seems like forever.  I am two years closer to seeing him again.  I wish I had some inspirational words to type to you today.  I don’t.  I do know that I am way better now than I was a year ago. 

In the coming weeks, I am going to write about what the first weeks of our life without Peyton were like.  I want to remember, not to wallow in self-pity or grief, but to realize how far we’ve come.  I will tell you stories of the incredible blessings that came to us in our nightmare.  These blessings were lifelines.  I want you to know about them; I want to remember and have them written down for everyone to see.  God loves us and He uses people to show His love.

Thank you to all our friends for your continued love and support. 

FYI Facebook friends this blog posts automatically to Facebook.   If you comment on Facebook instead of the blog, I will not be able to read it until January 30th.  I am fasting Facebook until then.  I am expecting to hear from God a lot during this time.  I am excited about this time and excited about sharing it with you.

7 comments:

Winter1229 said...

Becky, my thoughts and prayers are with you during this time.

Crystal Winter

Anonymous said...

Becky your strength and faith in God are such an inspiration to me. I know that no doubt you have touched so many lives in an awesome way. Our footsteps in life should show Christ to the world. Girl if they cant see him in you and Tom, they are blind. Praying for you two... Rose H.

Kay said...

I know these days are hard. Was talking to a friend today about 'anniversary days' and just how hard they can be. So glad you're going to tell some more of your story. I know it's helpful to put it all down. Hugs to you today, friend!

~kay

seeking him... said...

Becky,
Your words are inspirational... because of the focus of them... on eternity... & on God's faithfulness.
Praying for you & Tom, especially today on Peyton's 2nd Heaven birthday. May the Brightness of God shine in your sorrow.

Theresa Brewer said...

Love you my friend. May God give comfort and blessings to you and Tom.

Kelley said...

I am thinking about you! I have been really missing Blake this week. Peyton was a special young man. Your strength is so inspiring.

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

2 years closer to see him again.

I like that.

I like that A LOT.

Praying for you.